Relation-Ship

Last post: "The Guy with Computer Know-How" by The Arrogant Worms

"Well there's nothing good come from guilt

Better give it up, give it up and move on

Just owning my mistakes"

Yes, it's been a while. Quick update:

Graduated, which is good. Got a job, which is good. Moved to a condo, which is good. So I should be happy, right?

"Can't blame anyone

For anything I've done

They're my mistakes"

I have been thinking more about human relationships lately. It's so odd how seemingly random people seem to meet and become friends. Add to that the internet, which has resulted in even more random people meeting and becoming friends.

As I write this I'm chatting with a bunch of people in a chat room. I really don't "know" them per se, but none-the-less I join them each Thursday evening. The conversation is weird and not really about anything, but it's an odd kind of fun. In addition, it's very different from the old chatting in that it's voice chat now along with a video feed from our "host."

In addition, I have been chatting with a girl I met in real life. We have become very fast friends and all of our important conversations have been on MSN. Sure, we've gotten together for the odd day/evening out, but we really only talk via MSN.

"Well there's nothing good ever come from guilt

Better give it up, give it up and move on"

Not that I have anything against Internet-based relationships. There was a time when my entire social life was on-line. I met my first girlfriend on-line. That ended, but it was still a good relationship for a while. Internet relationships can be just as important as in real life. Some people seem surprised by this.

"A lie is like a bottle of wine from a cheap liquor store...

It doesn't cost much at the time but it burns as it goes down...

And you know you're gonna pay - later you say, now it's OK

But as hard as you swallow you can't shake the taste

The acid and the afterthought churning in you belly"

I've been told I'm a great friend. That should be enough. I'm trying to not worry about any other relationships.

"And it leaves you with nothing but regrets

Just owning my mistakes"

Hello, my name is Michael and I'm an Internet Addict...

Last post: "Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth with Money in my Hand" by Primitive Radio Gods

"I know what to do when you are staring at a screen
That says fatal error 642 you don't know what it means
You bang the keyboard, throw the mouse, and scream like a banshee
Your tiny brain has failed (NO) so now you must call me"

I am truly addicted to the internet. Every aspect of my life, professional, social, entertainment, and such are dependent on access.

"Please help me get on the information highway
I seem to be stuck in my virtual driveway
No help me first, I am in great despair"

Here is the current situation: My next-door neighbors are having their driveway replaced. Now the contractors did take the precaution of checking for lines, and I did see the markings and flags. However they were told the phone line was 3 feet underground, not the 3 inches it actually was. Of course this little event has to occur on the May long weekend. Sunday they cut the line, today (Monday) a friendly Telus tech arrives and makes a temporary fix, but a crew will be out tomorrow (hopefully) to do a permanent fix and bury it again.

The result, so far, was 24 hours without internet access. At first it was more the concern about not getting e-mail. I am reliant on it for most of my communication with my current source of income, so that is a genuine concern. But as I woke up this morning, unable to check my usual sites and web-comics, I found myself more irritated and frustrated. I actually found myself going for a walk around the neighborhood with my PSP looking for an open wireless connection (which did not take long).

"When I walk in the room
People they do bow
For I am the guy with computer know-how"

Of course, the only e-mail I had was a message from facebook, and I really haven't missed anything. Still, not being able to check. It was also frustrating not being able to do anything about it. I'm used to fixing peoples' computer troubles. There's also the issue that I will lose it again, hopefully temporarily, when they return to fix the line. I guess I'll have to get my fix tonight.

Prepare to launch

Last post: "Auld lang syne" by Robert Burns

"Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do what prophets say?
If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?"

We're in the final stretch now with two more weeks of classes. I'm doing well, despite volunteering for an extra task. My final project is complete, my portfolio DVD is getting close, and I have my internship information. I really don't know what is going to happen next, which is a rather strange feeling. I haven't had a lot of time to think about it, but that time is coming soon. I've been preparing, but can I be fully prepared?

"A life is time, they teach you growing up
The seconds ticking killed us all
A million years before the fall
You ride the waves and don't ask where they go"

I've been thinking about the wrong things, really. Obsessed about potential love, which isn't real. Hopefully the internship and coming job search will take my mind off of all that. I still need focus to finish up these last couple weeks. I am looking forward to the grad show, which I've been a part of. Hopefully that too will go well.

I've been watching The Office a lot. There is this constant theme of unrequited love, so I really identify with Jim. It's also a very funny show and I highly recommend it to anyone who actually reads this.

"I've been downhearted baby
Ever since the day we met"